Do you ever find yourself in a situation where something is bothering you, and you have the urge to say it but hesitate because you anticipate a negative reaction from the other person? We don't want to deal with their response because it may be overwhelming and could cause more conflict or discomfort. We can all be conflict-averse. So instead, we decide to stop speaking up. We start holding our tongues and ignoring our own needs. We know it isn't healthy, but the alternative seems impossible.
Michael has been married to Louise for three years. He never wanted to be married to her in the first place. Before they did so, he would voice his misgivings, but Louise would always fall into despair. He eventually stopped sharing his concerns and consented to marry her because the guilt and shame became too overwhelming.
Even today, whenever he considers sharing any reservations or upsets, guilt and shame immediately take over, stopping him from saying anything. Not telling the truth is eating away at Michael's confidence. He fears he'll always be stuck in that relationship, without choice or his voice.
Sometimes we must find the courage to tell someone the uncomfortable truth despite how much it may hurt them. Being honest is one of the essential components of any healthy relationship dynamic – without it, any sense of trust or emotional closeness between both parties will corrode over time. Being dishonest with ourselves and others can lead to anxiety, guilt, shame and insecurity.
Telling the truth can be difficult for many reasons, even if it serves a healthier and more fulfilling relationship. For example, Michael has stayed in his marriage to Louise out of fear that voicing his true feelings may cause her to become too distraught. A fear like this can make us feel like we have no choice but to keep our concerns unaddressed and remain in an unfavorable situation.
Additionally, when trying to express difficult truths, there are practical barriers such as feeling overwhelmed by words, not knowing how to start a conversation or gaining the courage to speak up. On top of these worries, there are also certain emotions tied with telling the truth, such as guilt which can further impede any progress towards expressing our true thoughts and feelings.
Finding Our Clarity
Speaking up after having withheld our truth can be difficult, as emotions can often be overwhelming. This feeling of damming up can make it difficult to express our thoughts and feelings clearly and rationally. The fear of unloading our emotions, which have been so tightly held for so long, is daunting. We often feel like we cannot control the raw emotion that follows when we finally open up to someone. It's an intimidating process.
When we prevent ourselves from communicating our true feelings, it can become difficult to see the situation objectively. Our blocked emotions cloud our judgment and create a sense of hopelessness that makes us doubt the chances of finding a solution. We view the other person in an unfavorable light, failing to recognize the human component that intrinsically exists in all relationships.
When we put our feelings on the back burner, it can be difficult to see the entire issue. Taking time to acknowledge the backlog of emotions is key to regaining clarity and objectivity. We might do this in meditation, journaling or dialogue with a friend or guide. Approaching our feelings with understanding and kindness can feel counterintuitive, particularly if we're inclined towards relying on shame and guilt to hold our feelings back.
Additionally, it is important to sort through the impact our past experiences and traumas might have on our present relationships and work through those issues healthily and honestly rather than allowing them to dictate or harm one's current relationships. We might explore how our emotional reactivity might be related to events from our past. It can help to gain perspective by uncovering patterns that we could not see before.
Finding Courage
Before Michael ever had the conversation with Louise, he'd need to find his courage. We can be assured that the other person will react in hurt and dismay whenever we commit to telling the truth after holding it back for a long time. They might be angered. We don't know their reaction. We can be sure, though, that there will be upset feelings.
It can help to acknowledge the critical parts that doubt that anything good would come of telling the truth. It's easy to sink into a cynical point of view regarding honest communication. Our past experiences with one another convince us that nothing good could come out of open dialogue, so we keep our feelings hidden. But while this may seem like the safest option, it can often lead to a disconnect between individuals. This severing of ties diminishes the level of connection and understanding in the relationship, leaving both sides feeling isolated and unable to move forward.
Not only do we have to acknowledge the cynical parts, but we want to acknowledge the scared ones, too. Telling the truth can be daunting. We never know how the other person will respond. When we withhold our honest thoughts and feelings, we avoid pain, but we step right into it when we tell the truth. To be courageous, we willingly step into and embrace uncertainty. By learning to accept the unknown instead of shying away, we can become more courageous in the face of uncertainty and find ways to overcome difficult situations.
Small steps are key to building courage, allowing us to explore our potential at our own pace. We can gradually develop more confidence in speaking up and expressing ourselves instead of hiding our thoughts and feelings. Over time, these small steps will help us prepare for the "big conversation" and the uncertainty that may come with it.
Clarifying Your Intentions
Sometimes, it's not just cynicism and fear that hold us back, but it can also be a lack of clarity about what we want. We need to better understand what we want from the conversation. What is our desired outcome? In many cases, we may think our desired outcome is clear-cut and not particularly complex. However, upon closer examination, it is often the case that our goals are more nuanced.
For example, when considering a conversation between Michael and Louise, Michael may think the discussion is about separating. Still, on deeper introspection, it could very well be that his goal is far more nuanced. It could be that he wishes to find ways of speaking about topics that are off-limits in the relationship without emotions getting elevated. He may hope to create structures of relating that feel safe for both him and Louise. He might seek to rebuild trust, foster a healthier dynamic, or even gain some closure. Perhaps he may want to ensure that Louise understands his feelings and respects his decision to end the relationship.
Understanding the desired result before beginning a difficult conversation is essential, as it may be more complicated than originally thought. Additionally, having an intention guides the conversation, keeping us focused on the outcomes we seek. Failing to clearly indicate what we want from the conversation can lead to confusion and, ultimately, an unsuccessful outcome. Consequently, it is imperative to keep an intention in mind throughout the conversation to ensure that it remains productive and focused.
Holding back our true thoughts and feelings can result from various factors, including fear of negative reactions, guilt, shame, and past traumas. It can lead to a lack of clarity and objectivity in our relationships and erode trust and emotional closeness. However, it is important to find the courage to express our true thoughts and feelings, even if it is difficult. This can involve taking time to acknowledge and process our emotions, seeking support from friends or guides, and exploring past experiences that may influence our present relationships. We can work towards healthier and more fulfilling relationships by finding the courage to speak up.
Summary:
Withholding our truth wreaks havoc on our relationships not just with others but with ourselves.
The weight of unspoken truths can drag us down, but the courage to speak them can bring us freedom.
What is not faced, will fester. What is faced, will heal.